Maybe it's the grey fog that's finally seeping back into the city. Maybe it's the holiday season, which I'm not really a fan of. Or maybe it's simply that my neighborhood drug store has been out of Vitamin D gummies for two weeks. Yes, I'm a grown-ass woman who likes her gummy vitamins. (Also, it's a telling sign that winter is approaching in Portland when all the vitamin D gets snatched off the shelves.)
For the past few days, I've just been in a bit of a funk, struggling to get my energy up and not really looking forward to my runs. Or much of anything for that matter. I'm still following my training schedule, but my heart isn't quite in it for the moment. I know that still with eleven weeks to go, ups and downs are a given. But it's disheartening when the downs crop up.
I think part of the problem might also be that I've attended several social events over the past few days, much more than I'd prepared myself for: holiday parties, fundraisers, even a movie screening. And as a self-proclaimed "social introvert," it's depleting to be social. I generally enjoy the events in the moment, and it's not that I'm socially inept by any means. It's simply draining. I want to reclaim my "me time." In fact, that's one of the reasons I enjoy running so much. It's a guaranteed way to claim time for myself. But I'm finding that as my reserves seem particularly low, I will have to supplement the runs with some much needed alone vegging out time in addition to the running.
And maybe that's the other part of the problem. I know that it will be quite some time before that happens. With the rest of the work week still looming, followed by more holiday events through the weekend and into next week, the prospect of replenishing alone time feels a long way off. I'm struggling.
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